14/11/2024 the more my brain spirals into seeing many many many many layers upon layers of online everything the more i feel scared of life itself. that i dont want to see people and i wish i wasnt a person so i'd have no obligation to be like human and other humans and communication and relaying and growth and the more dread i feel everyday the more i'm scared i'll go crazy like my mind will bust because im stupid and im scared of it. it's impossible. like this feeling is inescapable i don't know how do other people do it how do they cope. i need real life i need to talk to people i need to get out of the hole. all i can do is draw because i am so scared of people how did i get like this