12/10/2024 never have i been so obsessive as i have these days. digital photo hoarding. hmm....okay..... i'm sure i will bounce back. but otherwise everything feels sloggy. and i'm gripping hard on things that don't matter so much. i want to snap my fingers and be rational already. when did i get so obsessive of so little things? i'm stuuupid i'm gay and stuuupid okay! i hope i can say "at least i am still drawing". but i've been finding it hard to draw lately. by lately i mean 3-ish days... this feels like an overreaction now actually. draw when you draw. besides that the digital photo hoarding is bothering something in my head i think/i don't like feelings of impermanence. makes me sad :( but whatever whatever i need to get rid of this.---> i need to calm down