23/11/2023 im so out of it all the time... only been able to draw hetalia yaoi and read hetalia yaoi online HAHAHA.... dont tell anybody thats what ive been doing tho. lol. its a normal teenage thing but it fucking sucks how insecure i am. i cant get naything across these days. i was not depressed when i first started randomly reading a bunch of hetalia fanfiction... was at a high sense of joy and calmness thrill consistent... im kind of peeling apart again. everything is a constant haze im dizzy im so out of it so often. if i focus rly hard i can draw some more hetalia anime boy like a a girlnextdoor you want to maim. just feel kind of lost all the damn time.